Nature

By Noor

Nature sends valuable messages in unique ways. The most valuable message I received is that I can be vulnerable in the presence of nature. I love the sounds, especially when it’s raining. When its raining and the lights are dimmed or completely off. The pattering of the rain against my window. That foggy haze that covers the sky. In this moment I feel safe, vulnerable, open, alive.

Someone you were in the past

Something that will never change is how I return to myself or my head space or watching movies when I am in a situation that makes me anxious. Something I like to keep to myself and distance myself from others to gather my headspace and collect myself to come back to a difficult situation.

Something that you value in the present

A moment I constantly think back to is when I finished primary school. I remember the day vividly, I remember making cards for my favourite teachers and seeing one of them cry and it warmed me to feel like I actually mattered to these teachers once. I remember she took the card and read it, then we both started to get emotional. I remember thinking and feeling like I was finally going to start something in my life. I felt very sad to see the teacher go but I knew that she was meant to teach me a lesson and then leave. A lesson I learnt from her was to always be confident and take positive risks even if you don’t want to.

In this moment I was my confident and emotional self.

In this moment I value the relationship I created with my teacher. Although I have no contact with this teacher, a friend once told me that some people enter your life to teach you a lesson that is valuable to your life and then leave.

Something that will never change

Something I value in the present and in the past was my alone time. I don’t feel lonely when I’m alone I feel safe and serene. When I am in a room by myself I hear silence and I feel relaxed. I value silence and no people, because I can feel like myself and not what other people see me as, and when I am by myself I can express any emotion I want to myself without the fear of being judged. I especially value being alone whilst it is raining.

When it’s raining and the lights are dimmed or off, the pattering of rain outside the window, with that hazy feel when you breathe in the cool, foggy air it feels like I am safe and vulnerable, open and connected with nature.